I’ve been approaching the tightness that grips my chest differently. I’ve been asking my vagus nerve to release and for my racing thoughts to cease.
I calm my body and pray, but not for me.
I pray for you, whomever clouds my mind taking away my present time.
I pray you’re okay, that you find joy and strength in your day.
I pray for your health, for your secrets that creep through your mind to find light and subside.
I pray you’re safe in everything you do.
I pray for you.
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A single tear falls
Reading your response
My chin quivers, I feel my nose tuck
My eyes focused, sad, another tear is produced
Your words are like a knife held to my throat
I’m afraid to move
So badly I want to feel nothing
So badly I want to never feel anything for you
How heartbreaking it is to see how little I impacted you
How disappointing it is to love with no return
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So I’ll let you fade
I’ll let go
I’ll let go of what I felt
I’ll let go of what I knew
I’ll let go of you
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I could wrap myself around you
Cuddle up in your chest
I could kiss you goodnight
to know I’d kiss you good morning
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You’ll know exactly what I am thinking
I’ll tell you
Without hesitation
I’ll tell you everything
All of who I am
My desires
My fears
My eccentric sense of flare
I’ll tell you
My heart
My true worth
I’ll tell you
How I feel about myself
Broken
Sometimes scared
But so amazingly in love with who I am
Who I’ve become.
I think that’s what you were
To see my process
To see how I respond
To see I care
To see that empathy
To see that love so ruthlessly
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I don’t know if I’ve ever been more wrong about a person
Even as I am allowing myself to dissociate and rewire; I know I still hold space for you
I know what I felt and what I believed was true, but you never came through
You never said, “I’m sorry”
“I never should have left”
You didn’t choose me the way I was willing to choose you
The way I believed you would
I was convinced from the start I found who I would love and be loved by
I was convinced we would defy all odds
I was convinced you, no matter what, would always choose to be mine
How wrong I was
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I’m not shy when it comes to you
I’ll let all my thoughts consume
I’ll tell you everything I am feeling
I’ll watch what you post
I’ll like what you do
I’ll be that person who was madly
deeply
in love with you
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I feel every ounce of what I held for you leaking through
even if I try to patch it
even if I try to pour it all back in
these cracks keep breaking through.
I hope you know it wasn’t me who chose to see you go
it wasn’t me who stopped believing what I felt to be true
I hope you see it was you
I hope you recognize what you chose not to pursue.
I hope you acknowledge this is on you
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Reading every thought looking into your eyes
Watching your story with every movement you make
Listening to your smile
I can hear everything you don’t say
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There’s always a part of me that says you’re worth the fight. That you’re worth my patience. That you’re worth holding on for.
But like all things, you’ve had your time. You’ve made your choice.
So as I sit here, I’ll remind myself you don’t believe you’re worth the fight. That you’re worth my patience. That you’re worth holding on for. I’ll remind myself there’s no reason to reach out. There’s no reason to remind you what you mean.